Test results are in from the Monday PET scan and it looks like the medication is working! This is the first scan since the one in December that showed that that regiment had ceased to be effective. Whahoo! This pill form of therapy has less side effects and allows more freedom for me - this is all good. I still have tubby toes - no TUBBY FEET - no ankles and need bigger shoes - some tummy issues, but nothing to seriously hold me back. I feel like jumping out of plane again - the exhilaration from good news is close to the same.
OK - this was a while ago but it's all part of the feeling of celebration.
The mental games that go on with this up and down routine are amazing. Although we all know we are mortal, that reality has a lot of different levels of appreciation in our daily lives. It is easier to live "as if"... or is it easier? We all do. Making happy plans for the future - Anticipation as Carly Simon put it. This adds hours, days, weeks, years... to our pleasure about an upcoming event. The anticipation is a big part of the fun. In my situation, the anticipation for happy events in the future can only look a short window ahead to allow me the joy and faith that it will come to fruition - so I anticipate everything with greater vigor!! The flip side is the joy we get from reminiscing. Perhaps this ties back to my scrapbook days, but that the looking back has brought me pleasure reliving many things. As the anticipation window is shortening the reminiscing window is panoramic! And, surprise among surprises - the panorama includes some beautiful places, but mostly some beautiful PEOPLE. I have been blessed to share many important occasions, adventures, moments with some wonderful people. Many I have lost track of - but they are still with me. Some of you are here - more and more with each new post. People are who have formed me, guided me, taught me, led me..... I have choseN the direction and the people... and I am so glad I have had the opportunities.
Now, with my Cancer reality and attitude I am endeavoring to balance the importance of reminiscence with the joy of anticipation. I am on a quest to reminisce with those who shared some great giggles, events, life changes, or just passed happy time,,,, AND look forward to experiencing another new adventure and sharing - with great anticipation.
With that in mind, I have been coordinating a trip to drive around Florida and visit old-timey friends and share the moment. John and I are leaving tomorrow. I am also planning a similar trip to Dallas with John to reconnect. My anticipation is huge and happy. I hope I don't overlook anyone - time is limited - but we always knew that. So as they say, all we have is the present, but I am using some of that to celebrate the past and rejoice in the future.
Thank you for taking the time.... hugs to each of you.