Daffodils.

Pardon my abscence..  I've not been well!  But as my British friend Deanne would say..  Lets get on with it..  ,  I will start on a lighter note - DAFFODILS.  I want you each to know All daffodils have bloomed- I am being presumptuous since I don't have all pictures to share with you.  More importantly,  I have recieved many thank yous and realize how often each flower has brought a little sunshine into each one of our lives. The "gift" was Multifacited.


I hope to get back to writing more but it''s hard right now - I've been depressed (surprised?) and have not felt sociable.  Seriously,  it's not YOU, it's ME!
That felt good to get out.  It's true.  I am Depressed.  Just me,   talk me out of it or I'll just  wait for it to pass.

it will ...

please
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self quarantine

Haven’t left the house in two weeks.  john And i haven’t killed each other and I am more thankful for having him in my life every day.  the first week of our quarantine was quiet as we both dug into our own projects....John cleaning out his office from 30 years of gathering, and me organizing my paints thinking of taking it up again.




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 Then last Saturday we decided to go for a walk.  My walking has deteriorated from the and regressed to a tilted walk in the previous week,  a walk I had. About 6 weeks ago where my head starts leading and I have to stop to let my feet catch up - hard to explain but clearly not normal.  I believe it from my drugs and my doctor’s agree.  I was debating taking a holiday from them when....I tripped on uneven sidewalk pavers, smashed up my face and who knows what to my right leg and knee.  JOHN dragged me off the street and into the house.  MY leg was useless and my face was dripping. Blood.  John had a pretty good case of raking me to the emergency room but i dug in my heals.  He got me to the recliner in the family room and that is essentially where i have remained.

Now i am navigating on the first floor and have increased my range to the entire first floor = 1/2 at a time,   It’’s exhausting,


Beware...in this state of aloneness i have reverted making phone calls in a random fashion.  Connecting with friends on facebook that i haven’t talked to in years when i see they are online. For Christmas i bought. Myself a “Portal” primarily to read books. To WILLIAM. We have read a few and total joy without hugs.it’s very handy with this isolation business,

Next blog i may do a video...til then

STay Well and.  Stay safe

Jan

Alli Anderson

March 10th Ally Anderson was born.  7 lbs,10 oz around 2:30 AM         WOW!   What a concept - a GIRL in my family.  William is so proud of her and is grasping the big brother role with great grace and enjoyment.  She was well preopared for this new addition.  I am awed by KA's organiztion and preparation of her new home. Big brother shared his excitement and  showed no signs of jealousy.  Just happy anticipation.

 John and I had the honor of staying with William the night Katharine Ann went into labor.  We arrived to squeels from  William - followed by the dinner distraction. KA and Will managed to  exit quietly  to the hospital and John and I were alone with the little prince.  He had had a busy day so was ready for bed at his regulalr hour. - and really ready when  John finished reading about dinosaurs.  He was the perfect big brother - slept well and late. It could not have gone more smoothly.  And what a treat to get those first baby ahugs of the morning as we went off to Day care as I had a Dr. Apt.

I want to get this news out so it's going to come in bits. stay tuned.

A new Month

It's March 2020!

Another milestone on this journey.  Had I known I would live this long- I could have started a lanaguage program and completed it..  ohhh the time I have wasted!  Now Im wasting more worrying.  Time to turn the page and get get back to living my life.

I am feeling much better with very little pain Medication.  I still am wobbly when I first stand up and often Appear as if I am drunk. It seems to be getting a little bit better but I think with the ears and everything else it's not going to change much more.  Time for me to cut my losses and go focus on the good things coming my way. First in for most I am very excited about the arrival of Ally around 27 March. I am to be an active participant to help KA  Excitement is in the air.

Last week Tyler came to visit for three quick days, it was great to have him here.  He and i aand  KA and William had some great time together, It was a great  visiti - I don't get to spend much time with  Tyler alone! I missed having Jamie here - but we will catch up on that.  In the meantime I want you to know that she is doing very well on the new cystic Phibrosis drug she is on - true medical break through.  Thanks for all of your support

And then no sooner did Tyler leaave and David Jr and a Penske van arrive.  It's kind of a long story and I dont  know the details,  bet he arrived at His Aunt Janet's!!!  Remembeer in December I was so distraught of having a lonely Chrismas?  what a lonely Christmas?  just give it time and, it seems to  right itself....just be quiet and an let it right itself.

Now it's time to be patient and wait for Baby Ally.   

GOOD NEWS

First Daffodil spotted at
Trader Joe's

        Good News

December and January were full of trials and tests.  Can I tell you how much I dread another MRI.  Loud, uncomfortable lots of banging..l.. sounds like the machine is going fall apart any minute.  Why is that one so loud??  But then again,  I am still having them.

MRI and CAT SCAN were last week,  Dr. visit today and all reports are good,  numbers are good indicators.  Although the last 6 weeks were supposed to be event free, i am hesitant to believe these. next six will be.either... but that’s what the Mass General has scheduled for me and I am hopeful.  I am going to concentrate on building.  strength and endurance, both of which are on the low scale.

I have a strong motivation for my efforts and that is there should a new Anderson baby girl born the end of March.  As all of you can imagine,  I am beside myself with joy and anticipation.  More information will be released as we proceed!  I ask for patience and understanding as this hearing thing is far from over and will always be a disability in this fast paced world of.communicationsll

I do apologize for my brevity here, and my lack of use of the telephone;  my hearing is stil bad and I fear I am becoming an hermit,  write if you will.

Seeing is belielving.

No Joke - this not hearing thing is a possible for real.  I was going along with the quiet imagining that it was a vacation from responsibilities.  Positive attitude and all.  The ringing in the ears and the banging are continuing... not so funny any more.  Socializing is painful, trying to separate voices and align them with a person in the group.  I find it easier to sit back and watch the body language.  There's a lot of information there.  Perhaps work on my writing skills.  I know I'll keep busy as long as I am somewhat strong and alert.
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Went to a new  physical training course that was recommended today.  I had to move away from the swimming for awhile because of the ear and hearing.  This one didn't work out too well, but I will try again next week - They sold out of harmonica's before I had a chance to buy one!

Tomorrow and over the weekend I am going to work on my FaceTime persona!  I have not been able to talk on the phone because I can't hear or discern inflection.  I talked with son John tonight for the first time in 2 months !!!  It was getting very frustrating no communication.  Totally different.

There were those of you who tried to call and wish me "happy birthday" who  didn't realized had called.  Either John or I told you I couldn't talk to you.  it wasn't personal, i really couldn't.  I hadn't recycled on those calls to explain.  Only now, with Facetime, can I . read your lips and have the ability to understand some of what you are saying.  It's a great relief to me and I apologize to any that feel  was being rude.

Communication is difficult, and when it's just one sense-less it can be impossible.

Is this life without ADHD?

Two weeks without hearing a shout out for me to, ni ine has been irritated that I'm not inchargeNo ones looking to ME to anounce and corral people for the next activity - and I have let myself off of that hook.  With ADHD I felt I was always a first responder no matter how uneccessary or inappropriate.

I have, instead focused on my lists and am making incredible progress.  Mind you, still in my ADHD ways,  interupts are plentiful from just my brain.  Right now i am distrated by the need to get something cold to drink. I could do that and forget where I am here. That can happen anyway and this is a good break...this time I will not get disracted by any noises and might get right back!

What is healing of this addled mind and this stricken body... and the wonders of modern medicine. that have given me this day.  the healing is going along, hope my social engagement goes allright. Although I managing to find Joy in solitude,  I really need friends.

The joys of Neuro-Diversity all within one self.  Thanks John Robison for awakening me to new possibililities.